Category: Finding a new life
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Extreme Acceptance Is the Only Reason I’m Not a Monster.
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“These are some really odd questions,” a rich arrogant asshole told me as he was trying to get me out of his life. “We all need a little anomaly in life,” I told him. I held my martini up for cheers and walked over to the next person. I was…
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Impending Doom After the Cult
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At 6pm on Monday night I’m driving up to an Airbnb I rented in Driggs, Idaho. My sister texts me: “I love you, goodnight.” As I put my truck in park I’m fighting an odd feeling. One I’m all too familiar with. Grabbing my luggage bag and getting set up…
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Becoming Human after Child Slavery
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O darlin little lady. You love your coffee. Old men sit on their porches and enjoy the morning sun. Then there’s that young couple who make 500k a year. While I’m busting my balls 12 hours a day, I see them flying out to Fiji to enjoy good food and…
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Break Me So I Can Breathe Again
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It hurts to heal. And there’s one emotional pull that ohhh I just have to have. That feeling of someone I love just ignoring me to the point of full rejection. And when I get it, I’m finally at peace again. I need max emotional pain. Make it hard. I…
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The Mushroom Trip That Changed How I See God, Religion, and Love
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The other day, I put out a podcast titled “The Truth About Cult Leader Russell M. Nelson.” In case you didn’t know, he was the recent leader of the Mormon Church, who passed away a few weeks ago at the age of 101. At first, I wondered if the title…
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I’m 27. Here’s Everything I Regret
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Some die old, some die young. Some mock religion with a laughing tongue and ridicule those who can’t become “unbrainwashed.” Am I one of those people? Did I mock too long after thinking I escaped? Did I make fun of my family and criticize people who followed their “inward religious…
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Jesus, If You’re There…. When Faith Feels Like Silence
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Many people celebrate Easter with bright colors, family dinners, and posts that say “He is risen.” But what if you don’t feel that joy? What if you’re not even sure you believe anymore? I wrote this piece as a personal letter—a poem—to Jesus.It’s not polished theology. It’s raw honesty.And maybe…
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The Dark Truth I Discovered When I Had Nothing to Die For
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If you are not living for something that is worth dying for, can you really live? That’s a question I never thought I needed to ask for the first 23 years of my life. When you live for something so much that you would die for it, giving it up…
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It Didn’t Hurt Bad Enough. Here’s Why You Need More Pain
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Bad times are bad. But they are affordable. Catastrophe isn’t. But when you can afford it, you live with it. Or worse—you can’t even see it. Spend years of your life affording mediocrity? NO! I hope it gets terrible enough that you have to change. Skipping dentist visits is affordable—until…
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Dark Days: When Killing Seems Like The Answer
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Man, sometimes I have dark feelings. And I know you do too. Love is good, but darkness is far more extreme. Love is blind and darkness more. Today I am going to talk about some personal struggles with darkness. Do you want to be a virgin forever or try out…
