Category: Finding a new life
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Break Me So I Can Breathe Again
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It hurts to heal. And there’s one emotional pull that ohhh I just have to have. That feeling of someone I love just ignoring me to the point of full rejection. And when I get it, I’m finally at peace again. I need max emotional pain. Make it hard. I…
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The Mushroom Trip That Changed How I See God, Religion, and Love
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The other day, I put out a podcast titled “The Truth About Cult Leader Russell M. Nelson.” In case you didn’t know, he was the recent leader of the Mormon Church, who passed away a few weeks ago at the age of 101. At first, I wondered if the title…
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I’m 27. Here’s Everything I Regret
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Some die old, some die young. Some mock religion with a laughing tongue and ridicule those who can’t become “unbrainwashed.” Am I one of those people? Did I mock too long after thinking I escaped? Did I make fun of my family and criticize people who followed their “inward religious…
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Jesus, If You’re There…. When Faith Feels Like Silence
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Many people celebrate Easter with bright colors, family dinners, and posts that say “He is risen.” But what if you don’t feel that joy? What if you’re not even sure you believe anymore? I wrote this piece as a personal letter—a poem—to Jesus.It’s not polished theology. It’s raw honesty.And maybe…
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The Dark Truth I Discovered When I Had Nothing to Die For
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If you are not living for something that is worth dying for, can you really live? That’s a question I never thought I needed to ask for the first 23 years of my life. When you live for something so much that you would die for it, giving it up…
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Dark Days: When Killing Seems Like The Answer
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Man, sometimes I have dark feelings. And I know you do too. Love is good, but darkness is far more extreme. Love is blind and darkness more. Today I am going to talk about some personal struggles with darkness. Do you want to be a virgin forever or try out…
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Dating Girls: Here Is What I Have Learned
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This is a wild one. God I hope this is an extremely inappropriate article lol.(That was sarcasm btw) Today I am writing what I have learned about girls since I left the FLDS, the crazy way I saw my first nude picture, and some other spicy things. You might be…
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Father’s Day: A Farewell Gift
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Today millions of people are celebrating their fathers. Some have no father. And some have bad fathers. I have not written to my dad in over a year. But I decided to send him a farewell letter. I never expect to communicate with him again unless he sends me some…
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A Boys Real Life Struggle With The Devil
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Reader, do you believe there is a devil? Big Foot? Yeti? Have you had no encounters? While walking the other day alone in the forest, I met a young boy. Entirely startled, I almost fled. Walking Alone “Why on earth are you walking alone?”, I inquired of the boy, still…
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Mothers Day: Life Is Only Fair To A Warrior
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Did you give your mother a little I Love You note today? A smile and a hug? A new car or house? Flowers? Today I am looking back at my relationship with my mother, contemplating my inward bullshit, and recognizing that life is only fair to a warrior. FLDS Culture…
